nothing matters

going down....monotonous life....colours in my sky fades....scavaging thru sandunes....my thirst builds up....my wings break....down i go....lower and lower....crashing on impact....helpless....i burn....burning away all the hearty fuel i carry....licking red flames end my story....peice by peice i break....peice by peice ash my memory turn....P-E-I-C-E by P-E-I-C-E i erase myself....peice by peice i scarttered along the path....the path to darkness....nothing worth stoping for....nothing worth holding on....nothing....nothing....nothing....

sumthin for everyone....

tifa fans....heres something for u...all da pictures i hav for tifa (my fantasy lady,wife, Etc. ...bla,bla,bla...) tell me,aint she sweet?no one have a sweeter smile than her,no one is more feminin taste than her,no one is more lady like than hern eventhou she kickbutts,no one is more independent than her,she is just perfect...salute Nakumura in his creation...



















just a gentle reminder,pls if u do obtain any photos of tifa dont tain it by turning it into nudity picture,it hurts my eyes to see such a sweet creation being destroyed...thx everyone for ur coorperation

SORI EVERYONE....

sorry abt recent decrease in blogs of mine...im reli sory abt dat...anyway im vry busy recently and will be facing my finals in 2 more weeks so i hope i will not disappoint u if no new post.....thx for all the support...>_< Peace!

why hold on to love ? unwilling to move on ?

a recent friend of mine brokeup from a relationship again...i tought their relationship will be perfect u know??? "J" was such a nice guy, and "Y" was such a lovenut...."J" was not perfect thou....he always have conflict with himself,always have a ghost side of him making him worried his gf "Y" is playing with him,not serious in love with him,two timing him......"J" was realy the low self esteam type of guy...niz but low confidence...."Y" on the othr hand was niz , small size (cute), loves affection,sensible , and falls deep love when she does love...."Y" was more independent type,and i was confident if she play her cards rite and able to control and convince "J"'s worries and pointless headsweats they will be perfect...it will last forever...

*HAIZ...* but things are very unexpected..."Y" fail to get a grip hold of "J"....not that "Y" was not capable enough but "J" still holds on to his past....His past still haunts him,still discourages him,scares him that he will fail again and disappoint him again....he was in love with "C" , they coupled 8 years ago....but "J" was very over prosessive,always worried for unimportant details and friendship with people..."C" encountered many problems with her friends because of "J"...but "J" still was over controlling her.....so they brokeup two years later....neither one survived the fall..."C" who still yearns for "J"'s love hav dark flicks from time to time,mood Saddening tinking of the past...thinking of the sweet times...however she was strong enough to free herself from it...she walked through it...after 5 long years...

Unfortunately...."J" did not...he never did wake up from his dream...for 5 long years,"J" isolated himself from girls,afraid to get hurt,unable to let go of long lost love.....

"J" was too entangled in to "C"...."Y" was unable to save in time...."Y" was unable to replace "C" place in his heart...."J" requested breaking off because he could not forget the past that haunts him...the past that he still carries around,keep and sealed in a photo, a photo of "C",kept in his purse always,goin wer he goes....he could not let go,could not let g-o,n-e-v-e-r did could....

its such a sad thig since "J" found "Y" who loves him,one who is able to undertake and tolerate his mood breaks when he losses confidence,but the final key is not in place....when one party is totaly ready and dedicated to him he was not ready for it....

at times we have to learn to let go,forget,look further.....

it never is or will be easy....im human too ,one who fell deeply in love too...i know how bad it will eat u inside....i know how hard it is to let the image of love one fade into black....i was bottled up myself for sometime too because of that....but to a certain extend we all have to walk our path...we all have to walk to our future....the past will only slow and criple us....just like "J",how sad his story was,many would die for a love who loves themselv like "Y",but he cant forget and lost what realy matters at the present,because he keep holding to the past...

walking away is never easy...but we all have a life to live.....GOD BLESS U ALL...i hope every guy finds his ribs back and every lady finds her body back...one who matches forever and ever....