nothing matters

going down....monotonous life....colours in my sky fades....scavaging thru sandunes....my thirst builds up....my wings break....down i go....lower and lower....crashing on impact....helpless....i burn....burning away all the hearty fuel i carry....licking red flames end my story....peice by peice i break....peice by peice ash my memory turn....P-E-I-C-E by P-E-I-C-E i erase myself....peice by peice i scarttered along the path....the path to darkness....nothing worth stoping for....nothing worth holding on....nothing....nothing....nothing....

sumthin for everyone....

tifa fans....heres something for u...all da pictures i hav for tifa (my fantasy lady,wife, Etc. ...bla,bla,bla...) tell me,aint she sweet?no one have a sweeter smile than her,no one is more feminin taste than her,no one is more lady like than hern eventhou she kickbutts,no one is more independent than her,she is just perfect...salute Nakumura in his creation...



















just a gentle reminder,pls if u do obtain any photos of tifa dont tain it by turning it into nudity picture,it hurts my eyes to see such a sweet creation being destroyed...thx everyone for ur coorperation

SORI EVERYONE....

sorry abt recent decrease in blogs of mine...im reli sory abt dat...anyway im vry busy recently and will be facing my finals in 2 more weeks so i hope i will not disappoint u if no new post.....thx for all the support...>_< Peace!

why hold on to love ? unwilling to move on ?

a recent friend of mine brokeup from a relationship again...i tought their relationship will be perfect u know??? "J" was such a nice guy, and "Y" was such a lovenut...."J" was not perfect thou....he always have conflict with himself,always have a ghost side of him making him worried his gf "Y" is playing with him,not serious in love with him,two timing him......"J" was realy the low self esteam type of guy...niz but low confidence...."Y" on the othr hand was niz , small size (cute), loves affection,sensible , and falls deep love when she does love...."Y" was more independent type,and i was confident if she play her cards rite and able to control and convince "J"'s worries and pointless headsweats they will be perfect...it will last forever...

*HAIZ...* but things are very unexpected..."Y" fail to get a grip hold of "J"....not that "Y" was not capable enough but "J" still holds on to his past....His past still haunts him,still discourages him,scares him that he will fail again and disappoint him again....he was in love with "C" , they coupled 8 years ago....but "J" was very over prosessive,always worried for unimportant details and friendship with people..."C" encountered many problems with her friends because of "J"...but "J" still was over controlling her.....so they brokeup two years later....neither one survived the fall..."C" who still yearns for "J"'s love hav dark flicks from time to time,mood Saddening tinking of the past...thinking of the sweet times...however she was strong enough to free herself from it...she walked through it...after 5 long years...

Unfortunately...."J" did not...he never did wake up from his dream...for 5 long years,"J" isolated himself from girls,afraid to get hurt,unable to let go of long lost love.....

"J" was too entangled in to "C"...."Y" was unable to save in time...."Y" was unable to replace "C" place in his heart...."J" requested breaking off because he could not forget the past that haunts him...the past that he still carries around,keep and sealed in a photo, a photo of "C",kept in his purse always,goin wer he goes....he could not let go,could not let g-o,n-e-v-e-r did could....

its such a sad thig since "J" found "Y" who loves him,one who is able to undertake and tolerate his mood breaks when he losses confidence,but the final key is not in place....when one party is totaly ready and dedicated to him he was not ready for it....

at times we have to learn to let go,forget,look further.....

it never is or will be easy....im human too ,one who fell deeply in love too...i know how bad it will eat u inside....i know how hard it is to let the image of love one fade into black....i was bottled up myself for sometime too because of that....but to a certain extend we all have to walk our path...we all have to walk to our future....the past will only slow and criple us....just like "J",how sad his story was,many would die for a love who loves themselv like "Y",but he cant forget and lost what realy matters at the present,because he keep holding to the past...

walking away is never easy...but we all have a life to live.....GOD BLESS U ALL...i hope every guy finds his ribs back and every lady finds her body back...one who matches forever and ever....

Philosophy Of Physics Newton Law

now let me refresh ur memory abt Newton's law of Motion. If i have not mistaken there is 3 laws..da 1 i like and will discuss today is Third law i think ( sory abt dat)

Now his third law states that ''EVERY REACTION PRODUCES AN EQUAL REACTION IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION''

Sure many of u will thought what relation it have to life when its a Physics law???look further brothers and sisters, ladies and gentlemen,.....

In Philosophy it is defined as : ''EVERY REACTION OR GESTURE DEFINATELY WILL PRODUCE AN EQUAL OR SAME LEVEL OF REACTION OR GESTURE IN RETURN''
........still dont understand???........it means what ever u do , u say , u react to people will produce an same or simillar reaction back to you...

take speech for example...u hate this guy/girl call ''B'',ok?
B always find fault with yuou and cause trouble for u..spreading rumours that are untrue and tainting ur name to ur friends..he stabs u in ur back...so, genaraly u jus SOOO!!!! hate him/her...

pick a day, one day u meet him, accidentaly, how unfortunate!!!.....u remember wat he/she did and u walk up to him demanding an explainion and an apology...
here is what u might say: "hey, B i heard u talking bad abut me again yesterday...WATZ ur PROBLEM ? ? ? what did i ever do to u till u have to be suce an ass-HOLE???? HUH??"

now if u say this what are u expecting, an apology frm B??? a sincery sory??? u think if sun1 walk up and SHITS u like dat u will give a damn? wen u already hate him/her too??? do u think if u are B u will apologise?? even if u are in a VRY g00d mood???

N-O W-A-Y !!!! this is the equal reaction u will get in return : "SHUT DA FXXK UP BITCH/BASTARD, U GO ALL OVER DESTROYING PEOPLES LIFES AND NOW U WANT TO BLAME ME??? FXXK OFF!!!!!!"

this is wat u get for wat u say,think abt it....if u enrage people like dAT with da words u said before,wat u will get???an enraged mouth raving and enrAGING u back in return!!!use a provoking tone and u get wat u ask for!!!a provoking person raving at u!!! use da word FXXK and u will get one equally demeaning word to ur face...slap sum1 and u might get punched...

try this for a change : "Hi, B!! I heard u wer unsatisfied with the way i was yzterday,I hope i did not accidentally offended u in anyway..I would like to share ur point of view and maybe we can find common ground. rumours twist and lie sometimes.They tell me that ur manners are much desired.Shall we find a quiet place to tango?"

now u tell me which approach will u prefer if u wer B??? da one who questions u??? ; or? this?

now this "new" approach is very strong and conveys the message all the same too with STLYE...
( i heard u wer unsatisfied ) replacing i heard u talking bad abt me.
( i would like to share ur point of view ) replacing WATS UR FXXKING PROBLEM?
( shall we find a place to tango?[tango here means talk,not dance]) replacing the questioning tone of WAT DID I EVER DO TO U TILL U ARE SUCH AN ASS-HOLE?

dont u think ur message is so much more smoother and soothing to the ears??after all we want to remain peace with this guy/girl not start a war rite???war either in verbal not actions benefits any party...history proves it all...

u dont think so???

the trick is using more CAUTIOUS words, more CAUTIOUS tone, GENERALLISATION, and some beautiful words to spice up ur message...language is art,dont taint it by verbal abuse...

try it, u may get an equal sweet mesage in return!!!

[note that not in all cases it is applicable, some people are just plain ass-hole]

Arriving at Deaths Door....

i recently visited my grandad in ICU at hospital....he was very sick...his body unable to clean the toxic in his body..

i see him lying in bed...eyes closed...pulse at 72-76...not sleeping...but always in resting mode...always tired...

i see him and i wonder wat hapens in the final hour???
i cant help thinking whether all da images of our life will flash through our close lid eyes???will we in subconsious state communicate with god????talk to him???will he judge us wherether to stay or continue???at this point i would like to reasure and state dat continue living in da world is a form of suffering...if a person leaves the world it means his duty or mission is acomplished...he has serve his purpose on earth...and therefore it is his time to continue living in the upper levels of the world...a world of no dimension, no space nor time, only happiness and peace in everyones heart...

so if a person we love leaves our dimension we should pray and remember him...remember his deeds, remember his goodness, remember his principles he left for us...
sure we do weep wen we lost him...sure we do feel anguish and cheated in our hearts...but think wer he have went...wat place he hav left...he is no longer held down by his earthly body...he has RISEN...to be at GODS side...to walk with the gods...all we can do is hope he does not leave without being remembered...without the last minutes spent worthwhile...with suffering

Peace....
u will always be in my heart Grandpa...

~i love u~

Da malaysian spirit....Very Original...

KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia - Five robbers have baffled Malaysian police by breaking into a house while clad only in underwear, officials say.

The men were armed with knives and gave three family members a rude awakening before dawn Sunday in their home in the eastern state of Sarawak, Miri town police chief Jamaludin Ibrahim said.

"All of them came in with underwear only and covered their faces with T-shirts," he said, adding that authorities don't know why the suspects were dressed that way.

He said the suspects tied up their victims and fled with cash, watches and cell phones.


-by msnbbc news-

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